Puso or Puson? Alin nga ba talaga?

"Walang pusuan huh, pusunan lang..."

That's a saying when you are in a swinging group or a fuck buddy relationship. 

I've been in that thinking once in a while when I had my fubu in 2012 and when I entered the swinging group as a unicorn with a bull in late 2017. 

The experience is great.Less worries and respect na din kasi may paalaman na nagaganap. Nakaka enjoy yung feeling na after your sexcapade, para lang kayong tropa na lalabas ng motel na as if walang nangyari.

Pero may iba talaga na mafafall if the guy treats a girl like para sya yung jowa. Madalas ai Ate Girl ang nahuhulog. 

Take note: When you get into this kind of lifestyle, set boundaries, set expectations para both parties ay hindi magkasakitan. 

In 2012, my fubu proposed to me after that FMF experience. Nagulat ako actually when he presented this box with a ring inside telling me "Can you be my girlfriend?" And I was like natulala and stared for like 1-2 mins. 

And all the questions in my mind started to blast like a bomb...

"Shit, pag eto naging bf ko gagawin nya kaya na ishare ako ulit sa iba?"

"Pag naging kami ba, ako lang kakanain nya?"

And other questions....

Unfortunately I declined the proposal, left the room and lived the normal life again. No sex for a year til I met my bf in 2013.

So here comes 2017, I joined a group of swingers. I find it nice and most of the guys our friendly. Marami din maere, maybe because it's a guy thing para lalo maboost confidence nila. We have a gc where guys will make lapag of pics of girls na napa squirt or napa creampie nila. Most joiners of this group have their fantasies talaga.

I had a bull on this group. He's nice and grabe respeto sa babae I can say. We were friends for quite sometime nga lang due to some reasons. Anyways, I had my most exciting and satisfying sexperience with him in the swinging community. Hindi sya mayabang, hindi ko rin ineexpect na ganun sya kagaling kumain na ako na yung nagbebeg kasi halos magliliyad ako when he do it. He don't penetrate his penis on me. He always eat me while he's playing me with his fingers. Ako na yung halos sumusuko but he won't stop. I can say he's a good licker and eater. And sa kanya ko lang naexperience yun. Mas gusto ko pang magpakain kesa magpakantot. Yung pagkatapos ko maka 3 na orgasm, he'll tell me, "oh, bakit biglang aliwalas ng mukha mo?"

And eto na nga, sya ata yung karma ko. Sobra kasi ako na attach sa kanya. We had our endearments as beb ko. He always compliments me. He checks on me from time to time. In short, para kaming mag jowa. And yes, I was the one who proposed that I am open having a relationship with him. And I received the sweetest NO from him. 

I learned a lot from being in this community. At eto nga yun.

1. Walang pusuan, pusunan lang.

2. Wala endearments. Sabi nga nila, call that by names, and you'll get attached. 

3. Wag mag-assume. Don't overthink. Pde sya maging ganyan sa lahat ng kasex nya or babae na makakasama nya. 

4. Never fall for a person that you know in the community. Kaliwa't kanan ang siraan jan. 

5. Set boundaries. Set limits. Control yourself esp your heart. 

6. Don't beg.

7. Iba ang sex with love and sex with lust. 

8. Never ever do kissing kung wala naman balak pala magseryosohan.

These are some lessons I learned from such experience. I left the swinging grouo after this incident. As usual, you can never befriend someone who breaks your heart.

Sa ngayon, I'm happily and satisfied with the guy I am with now. It's been a while na din since naging ganito ako. I can say as well fulfilled na ako. There are still some fantasies that are not fulfilled pero I think most of it are already done. So, I can say satisfied na ako. 

Thanks for reading! Cheers!