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Hi everyone. It's me again.

I just want to share my thoughts. Dito ko naisipan magshare kase I'm not sure if out there eh maiintindihan ako ng mga tao. 

Suddenly while brushing my teeth kanina, naalala ko my real mom left us when i was only 2yrs old bec she had an affair with another man. My grandmother always explained to me na hindi siya tinatabihan sa kama ni papa at mabarkada ang papa ko. And since early 20s lang mama ko eh hot na hot pa at my needs. I ignored that time kase di ko maintindihan ung "needs" na un.

My stepmother which replaced her also got caught cheating by my dad when I was in college. She had an affair for 2years sa naging kachat nya sa MIRC. For the 2nd time, tinaihan ang dad ko sa ulo. And my stepmother also shared to me na di magana ang dad ko sa kama maybe bec dahil diabetic siya or since hindi mahilig or totoo ung jokes nila na maliit t*ti ni papa. 

Anyway, I never paid any attention to those before. Dahil di ko pa naiintindihan at di ako open-minded. But now, just now, narealize ko why my two mothers cheated. Because maybe they were never satisfied, they were never romanced the way they wanted to be, they never got the attention, the love they needed...

And now I feel like im facing the same challenge.

I am pregnant, currently staying at home taking care of my son. And my partner is out Tuesday-Sunday working his ass leaving home at 5:30-6am and going home at around 12:30am-1:30am. He is very tired. I know that. 

Mondays is his only off yet he still needs to go out para asikasuhin ung van nya, maintenance since its the source of income and other activities like going to the gym & maybe meeting his friends.

While im left with my son 24/7 & 7 days a week. Going to hospital with my son, going to grocery/bank with my son etc etc. No leisure time. No personal space. And my partner not attending to my needs.

March 2019 na. Ive only had encounter TWO QUICKIE SEX with him. Na siya lang nagcucum. And everynight I just watch porn to satisfy my needs.

I dont want to cheat bec he doesnt deserve it. Pero I keep on complaining & begging na to him explaining na i have my needs. Is it too much to ask for? 

Sa mga magpapartners, I believe na a happy sex life makes the relationship strong eh. And now im really frustrated and depressed. I feel so ugly. I feel unloved. Not appreciated. *sigh*

Parang gusto ko sabihin sa kanya na if he doesnt have plans on making love with me then I'll find someone who does.

 

UPDATE 1: The other other morning nagusap kami, he said sana daw pumayag ako kagpa-iyot sknya. Sana daw wag ako magbilang at atleast daw ako nkkpgmasterbate siya daw hindi. Naiipon na daw tamod nya at atleast daw ako pinagpaparausan niya hindi ibang babae. 

What he meant is sana pumayag daw ako sa quickie na siya lang lalabasan. Since nkkpgmasterbate naman ako. Ano sa tingin nyo?

 

UPDATE 2: 

Text ko sa kanya.

"Kagabi naligo ako, nagpalotion pa ako sayo para akitin ka. Pero deadma ka na tlga sa akin

Nakatulog ka naman nung hapon ibig sbhin may lakas ka. Nakatulog naman na si AJ. Pero tutulugan mo din ako. 

May pagkakataon pero di mo kinukuha ung pagkakataon na yon.

Iniisip ko tuloy, ano ba plano mo? Gawin akong sex doll? Parausan mo lang?

Para nko tanga na nagmamakaawa sayo. Ineexplain ko lagi ung needs ko pero wala pa din".

 

Nung nilolotionan nya ako tinitigasan daw sya. Sabi pa nya "sarap sipsipin na parang kuhol." (Akala ko nga mkkpg sulat ako ng story sa PSE.)

Sabi ko "puro ka naman salita eh!" 

Sabi nya "eh ung bulilit o gising pa."

Di nko kumibo. Until nakatulog na kami lahat. 

Samantala ang haba ng nap nya nasa 530-10pm.

Nagdinner kmi around 10pm.

1130pm un nung natutulog ulit kmi.

So may energy siya. Pero puro salita lang.

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blitzmichael2's picture

I see. You are somehow right. Talk it out, hopefully di kayo magkasakitan nyan.

I totally get it.

ms.congeniality's picture

Hi! thanks. Boy oh boy im so glad I received messages on my inbox giving me tips and advices and not any of them offering themselves to give me satisfaction.  Im so proud sa mga PSE members na ito. heartyes

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Siguro burdened with responsibilities kaya ganyan. Better siguro kausapin m siya na lipat muna ng work. Yung mas magaan. Pag pagod kasi ang lalaki walang gana yan yan pagdating sa sex. Hopefully maintindihan mo siya. 

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ms.congeniality's picture

Yes. I agree. Naiintindhan ko naman. Pero may mga options eh. Monday. Restday niya. How about making plans to have date. Magmotel. Wala eh. 2x pa lang kmi nagsesex this year. Mejo sensitive pa naman ako ngyn bec of hormones. Tpos wala ako mabalingan or mahingahan. 

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Benjie_Fixer's picture

Bata kapa kasi kaya madali kang mag init nasa sayo yan kung mangangaliwa o bili kana lang toys

ms.congeniality's picture

Agree. 11 years gap eh. Saka nasa stage na sya na di mahilig. Also mabilis tlga sya labasan. Mga 20sec lang. While ako matagal.

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Mate13's picture

Hmmmm..siguro try mo xa kausapin? Tutal kasama naman sa relasyon ang dapat na magshare ng mga saloobin sa isat isa. Ikaw na magkakumbaba. Kasi baka mamaya mauwe sa pa pagtatalo lalo nat xa ang kumakayod para sa inyo?. At the same time is why not try to go with him pag off nya tutal magpapamaintenance ng van?. Or sabihin mo. Pede ba mag skip ka muna sa gym?. Ako muna ang igym mo?. Di nga sabi nila a good conversation is a good relation?. Goodluck. Take care lagi. 

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ms.congeniality's picture

Oo kinakausap ko naman. Umaabit na nga sa point na umiiyak ako ba parang nagbebeg ng romansa eh. Kaso ano daw magagawa nya. Kpg lunch time umuuwi dito eh gising anak namin na makulit. 3yrs old. Kog Monday bonding din with anak. Minsan nkkpanuod ng sine. May family time pero ung quality time namin sa isat isa wala. Kpg Monday night naalala ko, naligo na sya. Naligo din ako. Pinapatulog namin anak namin...tpos nakatulog na kming tatlo hahahah natawa n lng ako kinabukasan. Hahahahahaha

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NED03's picture

Great sex parin talga nag papa tibay sa isang relasyon :)

ms.congeniality's picture

Mejo naniniwala ako dun. Malaking factor ung both satisfied kayo sa sex. Di man un ung pinaka foundation pero malaking factor un. 

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boggyman002's picture

nasabi mo na yan saakin before, still yan pa din ang worriess mo, btw good to hear na youré back again well di naman ibig sabihin na walang ganun eh di na happy, he's still close his mind for all you need sure ako na he's makin a good job by providing kaso hindi lang namna yun ang sagot anyways, feel free to tell me kung need mo ng tulong still you know where to find me =)

ms.congeniality's picture

I know. 4-5 yrs ago un din rant ko sknya. Imagine everynight noon wala pa kming anak, quickie lagi. After nya magcum tulog na. Ako iyak n lng at masterbate habang humihilik sya. Hahahaha

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boggyman002's picture

still gnun pa din ba ang problema well, wag ka mawalan ng pa asa ana madadagdagan ang libido nya,

nice to hear again from you and you look gorgeous ikaw ang pinaka hot na buntis

 

ms.congeniality's picture

Naku it might be impossible hahaha

Thanks sa compliment. smileyheart

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darkbahamut's picture

I never thought na makakabasa ako ng ganito from a wife,lines that were usually spoken by men that are taken and very lustfull.di ako magmamalinis like you naiisipan ko ng mag cheat although naiisip ko din na hindi deserving si gf sa ganung treatment kasi napakabait ni gf,although naiisip ko parin I have always been loyal sakanya,naiisip ko lang din kasi hanggang ngayun ayaw parin niya ng penetration kahit 5yrs na kami,siguro ang maipapayo ko nalang,isipin mo nalang yung mga magagandang pinagsamahan ninyo,not only that,sabi mo buntis ka,sabo nila mataas daw libido ng mga buntis kaya siguro ganyan nararamdaman mo,if di mo na kaya,try some toys,though I know hindi siya super satisfying (I bought a toy to avoid cheating although hindi ko siya madalas magamit) mapaparaos ka parin naman nun,lets try not to be selfish kasi alam naman natin na mababait ang partner natin,yun nalang isipin natin.

May nakikibasa sa likod mo....

ms.congeniality's picture

Oo naman. Daming offers no kahit buntis ako. I am declining everyone. Bec I have no plans to cheat. Ung salita ko na i want to look for someone else eh kase i want to know his plans? If he still has plans na romansahin ako or hindi. I want to know ano status ba ng relationship namin. Ano ba gusto nya mangyari. Im too young para maging tigang. And yes ive been sacrificing bec this is an issue since then. For 7yrs. So hindi pa ba enough na im still here? I chose him dahil sa mga kids namin. Dahil somehow he is a good provider. I know theres no such thing as perfect relationship. Pero both shud compromise. Hindi lang ako.

Ang gusto nya mangyari is like before. Laging quickie. Ung siya lang. Ang selfish naman di ba? Ngayon lang ako nagdemand na if magsesex both shud cum. Hindi lang sya.

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darkbahamut's picture

No wornder,if your profile really is you,a married beautiful and pregnant, tasting you means hitting three birds with 1 stone,fantasy kasi namin halos lahat yun.to fuck a beautiful pregnant MILF.sorry sa terms a kapag kasi buntis libre putok sa loob kasi syempre buntis na so wala ng inhibition or takot na baka mabuntis kasi nga buntis na eh,saka bigger and milky breast,gustong gusto yun ng lahat.napapaisip tuloy ako.you did mention na older siya sayo(or I must be imagining)but any,kaya yan wag bibigay sa panunukso,(kagit sobrang nakakatukso)naiimagine ko kasi kami,ayaw pa ni GF ng penetration and mas matanda ako sakanya,naiisip ko pano kapag pumayag na siya tapos wala na akong lakas,kasi nga matanda na ako,haaay...natin yan

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ms.congeniality's picture

Hahaha nahorny ako sa message mo. cheeky wait will reply in a while.

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Whenever I check this blog it always gets updated, I've said my part already, I know Ms. M. will get through this. wink

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ms.congeniality's picture

Thank you.heartkiss

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Lahat ng bagay  nakukuha sa usapan. Make sure na calm kayu pareho, don't come across na sex as obligation.. Pagusapan nyu how to make a clear signal na napagkasunduan nyo if one or the other want to have sex, pagusapan nyu din anu preference ng isat isa, be open minded sa makakapagpagana sa isat isa. Hope that helps.good luck. 

ms.congeniality's picture

Thank you for the advice. Time lang din tlga kalaban namin and ung privacy kc di makakilos bec we have a toddler. 

Tiis muna aki ngyn. Naglabas labg ako ng saloobin. I appreciate evryone's advice. Thank you super.

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kundi magtiis, nice to know ur still around, ingat

ms.congeniality's picture

Oo magtitiis. Pero baka dumating sa point na di ko na maiwasan matempt at tumikim ng iba. Madami naman offers eh.

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Tiisin mo na lang muna but sana matauhan na rin asawa mo tungkol dyan sa problema mo na yan. Lalo na sa part mo na laging iniiwan ang tatay mo ng nagiging partner nya. Pag pinatulan mo naman mga panunukso ng iba dto mas malaki problema nyan baka nga mas lalong mawatak ang family na binuo nyo so ang hirap ng sitwasyon nyo but keep on trying. Minsan ko na rin kasi naranasan yan na nanegclect ang partner ko dahil sa pagod sa work. Buti nalng naagapan ko. Goodluck ms. G. Kaya mo yan.

ms.congeniality's picture

Ayoko naman na tlga magrisk na baka magkahiwalay pa kami. Wala rin ako sa lugar mkpgmeet ngayong mejo matanda nko hahaha at magdadalawa na anak ko.

Plan ko naman na tlga maging loyal. Nagshare lang ako dito ng current situation ko. Madami nagbigay ng advice na wag ako magcheat.

Salita ko lang din naman un kapag naiinis ako. All in all andon pa din nangingibabaw ung appreciation ko sa effort niya sa amin. Binibigay nya ung best kaya lang di lang mameet ung demands ko.

And maybe napaka emotional ko ngayon dhil nga preggy. Hehehe salamat po sa oras. heart

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Please still consider talking about it.

May ibang paraan pa naman na pwedeng ma-satisfy niya ikaw muna before he cums, Effort lang and pagiging open sa isa't-isa ang susi dun.

Hangga't maaari, huwag po muna tatanggap ng offer ng iba. Dahil malaki-laki ding factor yun sa pagkasira ng isang relasyon.

Nagka-gf ako ng single mom, hindi naman nagtagal relationship namin kase ayun naging laruan niya lang ako. 

Nagrereklamo pa siya sakin na parang walang sumeseryoso sa kanya pero ayun ayaw magseryoso tikim pa ng tikim ng iba.

Dami pa siyang sinabi sakin kaso hindi talaga open.

Kaya po hangga't maaari, subukan ayusin at humanap ng paraan.

Kapag gusto may paraan, kung ayaw puro dahilan.

Sana po magkaayos kayo at maging mas maganda ang pagsasama niyo.

 

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Go out and meet old friends

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